I have always felt that I dealt with depression and anxiety. I remember times during semester breaks in high school that it was always a struggle to get out of bed certain days.
I felt (and still at times) disheartened about what was and is going on in my life, in particular comparing my successes to the successes of my peers. I constantly feel like I have made so many mistakes already in my life that it will take a long time for me to get to the life I want.
As for anxiety, I always feel a sudden feeling of anxiousness when driving and when meeting new people, and definitely in regards to the future. I have mentioned this to my close personal circle, but since there’s an existing stigma around black people and mental health, there was no sudden taking to what I said.
As I actually have a Psychology degree (ironic, I know), I know all about both mental disorders (depression and anxiety) yet I’ve never been diagnosed with either, because I don’t feel like I have time for it; I definitely don’t want to do so now because I know I could not get done what I want to do right now if I am in treatment. The reason for this is that I’m in the midst of grad school within a very stressful environment.
Improving mental health policy for black women is my current research area/interest, and I incorporate what I have learned about how black women’s mental health needs are handled successfully in performing self-care, in appreciating the slow moments of life, and in loving who I am and what I can bring to the table.
Eventually, I will go to a therapist but now is not the time. My goal right now is to finish my Masters, learn and work in the real world, and ultimately reach this one goal of create safe spaces for black women who deal with a spectrum of mental health issues.
Our mental health matters, too.
- : JEC
- : 18-24
- : Female
- : Black or African American
- : https://twitter.com/InHerLife